Happy Birthday to my Daddy ^.^

We went to celebrate yesterday which was pretty good. Dinner was yummy and shopping was cool cuz my daddy bought me new baby blue puma shoes ^.^ I wish I can always be at home >.<

On saturday i had a great day with Derek ^.^ Went to moxies for brunch and went to watch "The Presteige". It was a pretty good movie, but so complicated at the same time. And Derek bought me a new wallet ... its the black and white pig thing ... so cute ^.^

So my weekend was pretty good, but now that I'm back at school, everything is coming down. Seems like whenever I'm here, the worst things happen, and its not just with school. Just when I thought everything was good and everything was gonna stay this way ... I find out a lot of things that I didn't want to find out. And so much actually happened during this weekend that I dunt even know about til i got back yesterday. This place is so UGH!

"What do you do when your friend falls for your boyfriend? What do you do when you end up breaking up a couple? What do you do when you're being treated the same as others, and you seem no different? What do you do when you're tired of doing favours for people just to make them happier? What am I suppose to do with this life of mine?"

hmm ... seems more deprssing than the real case ... w/e. 2morow is Halloween, gotta cheer up for that.

Haven't update since day b4 chem midterm ... lol. Well:
Chem midterm = nightmare
Calc test 2 = smiley face home
Bio midterm = horrible
Geo midterm = ^.^ good good
Calc test 3 = hip hip hooray! keke
Psych midterm = 2morow, so i dunno yet ... lol

Aside from school, everything else is pretty good i guess. Been spending lots of time with Derek, Michelle and Maxine. Studying with them makes me happy and sleep overs are good too. But you know ... some ppl are very *cough*big*cough* lol ... so i geet no space.

My mom left to China on Sunday which makes me very sad but my dad and brother is still here ... so thats all good ^.^ This weekend is my daddy's b-day ... gotta get him a present asap!

Halloween is next tuesday ... karaoke time! ^.^

Well g2g study for psych now ... update when i have time.

>.< I got sick yesterday afternoon ... my throat was killing, i was coughing like crazy, i couldn't sleep and i drank like 9+ bottles of water in 5-6 hrs. I couldn't even study for my geo midterm that was today, and i felt so stressed. my room mate was so nice, she went out and bought me, ice-cream, strawberry fruitopia, aero chocolate and halls, to cheer me up. But i didnt eat any of it except for the halls cu my throat was killing. anyways i gave up on studying so i just went to sleep and skipped bio this morning.

Today i woke up at 1pm, cuz i skipped bio, and derek came ^.^ He brought me soup ^.^ and this medicine drink >.< It was so nice being fed cuz i was so exhausted and was semi-studying for geo midterm that was in 2 hrs. Then he went to make the medicine drink for me; boiling water and everything ^.^ but it was so weird >.< ... like hot juice. But i ended up drinking all of it ... cuz im a good gurl! ^.^ I like being taken care of ... cuz usually im the one taking care of people.

So i went to do my geo midterm (having studied for 1 hr) that was worth 20% ... omy .. it was so whack! half the stuff there .. i was like wtf? seriously ... it was harder than a calc test ... lol. but its done, so w/e. at least everything is more spread out. 50% of the remaining are assignments and 30% is the exam. so yea ... i got 96% on the assignent ... so i jus have to keep this up to get a good mark. Seriously, i hate stressing and making everyone worry about me, including my parents. No more stress now ... jus do it and thats it.

Feeling quite good right now ... cuz the medicine drink and soup helped ... or maybe is a psychological thing ... lol. Off to class soon ... then studying for chem midterm which is 2morow.

Yes ... im a lil late ... but w/e ... here are some pics from commencement.


The Best 3 people of my Life

( For More )

Commencemnt was really great yesterday! It was so great seeing all the gurls again. So many pictures ^.^ (will post up soon). Everything was such in a rush though. After my 3:30 class, me and derek GO bussed back and Phil picked us up. It was great to see Mich x2 at first site when i stepped in the Livings Art Centre. It felt kinda weird seeing everyone again, but it was fun. It was great how me and mich t tracked down mr.jack ... haven't seen im since my b-day ... lol. The whole thing took a very long time, but at least will was keeping me company by laughing at these ppls last names.

I was so nervous when I got on the stage, i felt like i was gonna trip and fall or sumthing ... but as i was walking i felt the support from derek and phil (and i think rice cuz his voice is so weird) by their cheers ^.^

When everything was done Derek surprised me with a rose <3 And then took so many pictures for like 1 hour? too bad i didnt get to take a pic with mr.jack .. cuz he left right after the ceremony >.<

My mom came to pick me up after cuz i had to go back to Mac >.< but I ot a chance to introduce (again) Derek and Phil to my mom. I went to eat with my mom and she said so much about him ... I have a feeling she likes him ... or at least i hope, cuz i know that my daddy likes him ^.^

When i got back to Mac around 11:30, tony told me to go to his place to drink, so i went (bad idea). I got there and drank way tooooooo much in the first half an hour >.< but it was so hilarous cuz tony kept dancing with bev, and me and carstin just "chi mui" ... but he was so cheap >.< Eventually i passed out and Carstin drove me home at 3:30. It was so sun foo ... im never gonna drink that much again ... never got so drunk b4 >.< ... but meah ... it was free ... keke.

Today Carstin drove Derek and me home today. So nice of him ^.^ My daddy saw derek again today ... and i think everything is just gonna get better from here. Can't wait til Christmas dinner? ^.^

On the bad side ... i got 3 midterms this week, Calc, Geo and Chem. Someone save me!!!!

Well like always ... I'm stressed. *sigh ... im so sick and tired of this, but finally today ... i feel somewhat relieved. Maybe cuz I got my first test in university (calc test) back this morning and it made me feel better since i thought i would get 70%. In fact I got 88% ... but the sad part is, is that my TA was just nice this test. She even told the whole class that she will mark harder the next test, which is next tuesday >.< But I guess i'm good with it now, cuz i'm above the class average which is 80%.

Anyways, after my 10:30 class i jut went back to sleep ... and woke up at 1:30 cuz derek came. I made him buen seaw ^.^ ... so happy he liked it. When i was in the kitchen ... this white gurl looked at me and my pot of soup ... and said .. "woa ... you cook?" ... lol ... um yea ... i cook. she's so hilarious.

All i have to look forward to is commencement on thursday ... and or course seeing derek everyday. my room mate makes fun of me so much ... but meah ... i make fun of her and her gfs ... keke. I'm glad we get along ... we have all these night talks that are like 2 hrs, but thats gotta stop cuz i end up getting only 6 hrs of sleep. And if you know me ... you would know that i need like 10 hrs of sleep ... cuz i a piggy ^.^

Off to class now ... calculus ... beginning to like it =D

The Conavent (really good looking guy in it) + Moxie Lunch + White chocolate mocha + Derek = me unstressed ^.^

The purpose of this entry to tell EVERYONE that MICH TAI IS THE BEST AND I LOVE HER!!!!!

yup, thats it good nite ^.^

p.s. thx to novy too <3

yea ... once again im feeling stressed. this feeling is NEVER gonna go away. well maybe for a day or two ... but thats it! sometimes i feel like i cant go on like this. sometimes i feel like quiting. but sometimes i want to make my family proud ... so here i am ... being stressed over the mountain pile of work and 3 midterms coming up on the same week. and you know whats funny? i JUST finished my calc test yesterday. i don't like this life ... this place makes me soooo frustrated and sad. I don't even remember how many times I've cried in the past 2 weeks. The stress is gonna end up killing me one day ... *sigh I just wanna go home. My mom told me to jus try this year ... and if i cant do it ... just change it. *sigh ... but i dunt want to change my program. Derek was right ... im the one that putting pressure on myself ... but yea ... I can't help it.

Well thats the bad stuff. On Monday Derek and I and like a lot of an people went to a club cuz it was azn nite. There were way too many people ... took 4ever to buy drink ... and it was so crowded. Omy, and this tall azn guy touched my ass >.< so Derek splashed beer on him ... lol. Anyways, by like 12ish the place closed down cuz they caught too many underage drinking ... so that was kinda stupid. So them we just went back to my place and slept. And then being that GREAT GF i am *cough*cough* i woke up extra early to buy breakfast for Derek the next morning ^.^

Here are some pics from Monday Night:


Me + Derek <3

Me + Michelle

Lily, Rachel and Me

And here are pics from 2 weeks ago:



Me + Derek

turtle slippers

looook! the turtles can come outta their shells .. yeah!

now im holding the turtles ^.^

Graduation Doll

and a pencil case

All three gifts from him ^.^

*sigh ... i've been doing a lot of work lately ... like everyday ... feeling kinda stressed. ugh ... sometimes i dunno wats wrong with me ... im not behind in any of my classes ... but i always feel so scared. But at least Derek is always there cheering me up, and other people keep making me laugh.

I have a calc test on tuesday and i was freaking out for so long ... cuz its my first test ... and im so scared that i will do bad. >.< ... but i got lots of studying done already ... and i still have like 5 days! But yea ... I wanna go to the club (Azn Nite) on Monday, so have to do everythig ahead of time. ^.^

I've been getting to know my room mate better nowadays. We have those gurl talks b4 we sleep ... it lasts for like an hour or two ... lol. I actually feel kinda proud because she was so quiet and anti-social b4, but i finally opened her up ... and we can tell each other secrets. ^.^

But yea, even though friendships are going well ... I still miss Mich and Kim so much. I haven't talk to them on the phone for so long. They're like so NOT replaceable! ugh ... hopefully i'll see them and everyone else at commencement!

Got to sleep soon ... 3 morning classes 2morow. looking forward to going home w/ Derek 2morow + family dinner!

So school actually started now ... i've got so much to do and its already stressing me out! i just want to run away from all this work! this is so hardcore >.< But on the bright side, theres always that one person that can cheer me up anytime ^.^

Anyways, aside from reading, reading and reading, i've actually gone out! on wednsday, me, derek and carsti went to grafitti night, which was this club thing. it was prett boring cuz no one danced, but some funny incidents happened. Derek bought drinks for me ... um, it was "sex on a beach" and this blue alcohol mix thing that was really yummy. we "chy mui" and i pwned them so bad ... muahaha. after we went back to my res to watch a movie, but we stopped after 20 mis cuz we were tired, so carstin went back to is room to sleep @ like 12. so me and derek just chilled. it was kinda hard to sleep since the bed is only a single ... and someone kept snoring >.< and tak up 3/4 of the bed! lol ... my room mate didnt even come back that night ... dunt even know what she was doing with 3 other girls ... lol.

Yesterday was our 3 1/2 anniversary! ^.^ im so happy ... and im so thankful. we ate and i went to his class w him and chilled back at my place. then we went home together. it was so weird when my dad saw me and derek walking together ... and when derek left, my dad asked so many questions ... lol. oh yea ... derek bought me this really cute Foodie that is in a bunny rabbit costume ^.^ its so adorable!

now im back to work/reading >.

Well its been one lonnnnnng week. a very tiring week.

Sunday
- moved in + met my room mate (Windy) ... very flexible ... allowing ppl to sleep over ^.^
- went to MAC connector ... met this good looking guy and he asked me for my ext. lol. and his name was derek
- met my room mate's friend ... shes bisexual ... pretty good looking too ^.^

Monday
- morning call @ 8am
- met Joyce ... really cute girl ^.^ met Tony (derek's friend)
- bed race in the afternoon ... we got 2nd place ... so proud!
- went to monday night social ... went speed dating and met this hot Jap+White mixed guy ... his name is Andrew .. but after i found out that he smokes ... i was so sad ... so dunt really talk to him anymore.
- Windy and I got high off i dunt know what and started acting crazy at 12am at the student centre ... lol

Tuesday
- morning call and got free pancakes ... so yummy
- it was faculty day ... so met a lot of sci ppl and lots of azn gurls
- finally met up with lien and chilled at my place and gossiped
- went to lien's place and talked some more and attempt to kill giant spider
- conert at night, met Michelle, so we bought glow sticks for the concert
- yo ... people were doing it in the forest which was right beside the stage
- chilled with Windy, Tony and Carstin til like 5am, therefore 3 hr of sleep for the next day

Wednesday
- Derek came to visit! He bought me slippers, graduation doll and a pencil case ... and they were all the cut turtle guy "Kuma" that Kim has! so adorable ... i will pos up pics
- went to sign up for clubs with Derek and watched Airbands. Too bad we didn't win
- met Rachel that lives on 2nd floor, she's so crazy like me and mich! <3
- so at night Me, Rachel, Tony and Carstin went to bubbletea and played cards ... fun times

Thursday
- first day of class
- all classes were pretty chillaxing ... didnt so much
- went to eat with Derek
- later watched Snakes on a Plane .. wat a dirty/nasty movie!

Friday
- had classes all in the morning ... then left to see Derek ^.^
- bought all my books $500+
- went home and watched series (since i had no time during the week) and talked on the phone

So now it all classes but my schedule is pretty good right now since there are no tutorials or labs til the end of the month! ^.^

Spending time with Derek everyday makes me happy ^.^

Frosh is pretty good right now ... and its only the second day! my room mate is cool ... very flexible with everything ^.^ Im loosing my voice from the cheers and everything. and im so tired from dancing! ooo ... i met a hot jap guy ... lol. i'll update everything when this is all over.

WOODSTOCK IS THE BEST RES! <3 Snoopy yellow bird as our mascot!

Reps: Hey Woodstock!
Us: Hey What!
Reps: Hey Woodstock!
Us: Hey What!
Reps: Shake your bootie?
Us: No Way!
Reps: Shake your birdie?
Us: OKAY!
Everyone: Jump! Shake your birdie! *shakes butt* Jump Jump! Shake your birdie! *shakes butt* Jump! Shake your birdie! *shakes butt* Jump Jump! Shake your birdie! *shakes butt*

yup .. thats one of our cheers ^.^

i miss derek <3

August 29: CNE with Derek, Jenny and Phil
- met up with them at Erindale GO station in the morning. there were no trains so we took the GO bus to CNE
- got to union station and went to hotdog stand to buy yummy food ^.^
- first thing at CNE, we went on the Ferris Wheel! I love that ride ... feels so romantic? i dunno ... its jus really nice. we got unlimited rides pass so we went on a lot of dizzy/hurtful/funny rides ... like the spacship thing and crazy mouse. crazy mouse was crazy ... lol.
- derek and phil went to play poker for like half and hour so me and jenny went gambling and this stand where there were 2 azn guys.
- the azn guy was like hitting on me and jenny. he gave us like free money and joked around with us. there were times when we were suppose to win $1, he would give us $2 ... and it went on liek that for so long .. haha. Then he started to talk to us in canto ... haha. so jenny and i both ended up winning money from the "over or under" station ^.^
- we went to eat and got free food at ManChuWok, then derek went to the casino to gamble, so me, jenny and phil went walking around
- after we did some more gambling at those stations and went home on the GO train, and then Derek drove me home ^.^


( CNE )

August 30: Derek over <3
- Derek came over in the afternoon and i let him watch Face to Fate ^.^ Raymond all the way!
- later we brought my lil brother to the park. we played freeze tag .. and it was so hilarious. my brother kept screaming when we got near him.
- After we went to Shoppers to buy some stuff and he surprised me with my favourite Toblerone chocolate! keke ... its the limited edition that is capped with white chocolate! yummy
- We then went to Sobeys to buy some groceries for dinner ^.^
- during/after dinner we finished Face to Fate and watched Beautiful Cooking

August 31: Shopping + Demetres with Mich and Aggie
- met up with the gurls at 12 and received lovely gifts from Mich ^.^
- walked around and took booth pics. there was this crazy lil boy that kept laughing at his mom's booth pics .. he laughed for like 5 mins nonstop in and out of the stores ... lol
- went to try on dresses at Marla's and took pictures ^.^ then we went to cineplex to play ddr. omg there was this azn guy there that never missed one single step of the whole song ... like 300+ combos! me and mich wer elike falling in love ... and aggie was dragging us away
- we bussed to demetres and ordered yummy ice-cream. i ordered tiramisu and mich and aggie ordered white chocolate. we sat there for like an hour talking and gossiping .. so funny
- when we bussed back there was this old lady staring at us and told this woman that was sitting beside her "look at these chinese girls, they're so cute" ... me and aggie were like W.T.F???? and she was so scary cuz her lipstick was like bloody red!
- when we got back we walked around and took some more pictures!


( Mall with the Gurls )

Today I got my timetable for Mac. Im pretty good for first term cuz its pretty chillaxing ^.^

Monday
8:30am - 9:20: Chemistry
10:30am - 11:20: Calculus tutorial
3:30pm - 4:20: Geography
5:30pm - 6:20: Calculus

Tuesday
9:30am - 10:30: Psychology
11:30am - 12:20: Biology
2:30pm - 5:20: Biology lab

Wednesday
8:30am - 9:20: Chemistry
9:30am - 10:30: Psychology
2:30pm - 5:20: Chemistry lab
5:30pm - 6:20: Calculus

Thursday
9:30am - 10:30: Geography
11:30am - 12:20: Biology
3:30pm - 4:20: Geography
5:30pm - 6:20: Calculus

Friday
9:30am - 10:30: Psychology
10:30am - 11:20: Chemistry
11:30am - 12:20: Biology

Love my Fridays ^.^ Thursdays not that bad either. Tuesday might be the worst cuz i only got bio and psych .. but you see psych = bio ... so i have pure bio + lab that day! lol not complaining about the early chem classes cuz i like chem ^.^

Lets try to summarize this into sumthing short cuz im so tired ... lol.
- arrived at Derek's house just a bit b4 9am; went to sleep for a bit since i only got 3 hours of sleep
- took pictures while we were at his house relaxing
- went to eat lunch at Marches, it was very yummy ^.^
- shopped around the mall and bought some stuff (matching necklaces!)
- watched Step Up, it was a great movie, the guy is soooooooo hot!
- went to the Japanese gardens and took lots of pictures, and just relaxed in the shade
- dinner was at Moxies since we didn't go there for the longest time; he ordered steak and a bellini, and i ordered ribs and strawberry daquiri; then we shared soup and white chocolate brownie ^.^
- went back to my house to chill and watch series and then he left later at night

12 hour birthday plan is very exhausting ... but fun at the same time ^.^

Pics will come soon

Yup, spent a lot of money today ... on one thing ... lol. Well I met up with Derek at square one today around 3. I finally bought him a new camera, which was worth one week of my paycheck ... *sigh ... but its pretty so w/e. After we bought this cute pair of pig things (but dow yonge?) at animal world and then we walked around and he bought me a baby blue dress ^.^ its a tube top dress and kinda mini, but its cute ^.^

We then went back to his house and watched Beautiful Cooking and chilled til 6ish and went out for dinner with his whole family. We went to "gum sui lun", they ordered so much food ... its was not even funny ... but it was so yummy. Derek's grandpa was hilarious ... he was kinda drunk and started saying these weird things ... lol. Derek's grandma was kinda drunk too ... she was puring water for Derek's cousin, and she kept pouring and pouring even when it was filled up .. haha.

After dinner we went back to Derek's house and later at night they drove me home. Im so full right now >.< ... and i gained so much weight, but at least I'm not underweight anymore ... i'm at my healthy weight ^.^

Oh yea, today Derek's cashed in his $6 from Cash For life, and bought another Cash for Life and a Bingo for me! When we scratched it, Derek won another $6 from Cash for Life and I won $10 from Bingo! Then i cashed in my Bingo and bought one more Bingo and won $3! ^.^ I feel so lucky. Outta the 4 Bingos I bought, I won 3 of them, and only one of them were break even, which was this one ... lol.

Once again Derek came over today. Seriously, theres nothing much to do aside from watching movies, shop and eat. Or go to some other city and do the same thing ... lol. So anyways we chilled at my house for a bit cuz i wasn't feeling well, but it was great taking a nap and Derek running around the house taking care of me ^.^ When i got better we took my brother for a walk and went grocery shopping and rented V for Vandetta. Derek has been wanting to rent it for the longest time. So we headed back with lots of food and started to eat (Derek like ate half the pot of rice, and drank 2 big bowls of my "donge gwa tong" ... lol) and watch the movie. The movie was actually pretty interesting ^.^ but kinda weird at the same time.

On Saturday I'm gonna go out to dinner with Derek's WHOLE family. I've never ate with his whole family before cuz theres always one person at work or another went back to HK, lol. Im so excited ^.^

Yesterday I went to scarborough with Phil
- went major shopping at pmall ... clothes, food, presents, etc. spent over $100
- went to visit my co-workers at the supermarket while Phil was on the lookout for my mom, lol. i miss going to work >.<
- stuck in rush hour coming back
- went to eat at "sum moon yee jook"
- back at my house and played gamecube ... haha

Today was our 41 months ... not a major anniversary ... but still ... lol. Well first i got a surprise visit from Vivian and Kim ... Derek doesn't count cuz i already knew he was coming. Derek was dumbdumb and spilled ice-cap all over viv's car ... lol, and i ended up washing his shirt for him. Kim and Viv left after an hour and me and derek watched a movie. The new one with Hacken Lee. We played some game, ate dinner, ate ice-cream, watched a series and chllaxed. It was nice realsing day ^.^

I went to Mac today, to pay for my tuition and pay for frosh week, and go to some sessions. Was suppose to leave at 11:40, but Mickel was late .. so we took the 12:10 bus. Surprisingly, Sam came to the bus stop so we all went to Mac. I didn't see my room mate there but we ate and Sam toured us around. It was windy ... but so hot as well. we stayed for about 2 hrs and then went back to square. Oh yea .. we skipped the sessions cuz they're useless .. haha. So dead tired ... walking to much hurts.